Sadness

“Why am i like this?”

A new day will start, life is full of surprises everyday but it always ended just like the same.

How did i end up like this? i really don’t know what i will do next or what am i supposed to do with life? a lot of questions without answer.

I used to be a joyful one, loud talker, happy laugher,but when i am alone and look at the mirror?i don’t know who am i. They always say that a happy one can always come up a solution to they’re problems, i don’t think so. Covering face with a smile just to pretend of not hurting inside.

I am a “the best” to those who are asking for my help when i with them, but how did it really happened that i don’t have anyone who got my back when i need them? how? why?😥

This is eating me inside, everytime i think is causing me pain, i want to talk but i cannot, i want to shout but i can’t. Can someone give me a reason to extend this everyday? Can i give myself a reason to wake up?Can i?

ArkiTorture “kurso ng mga hindi madaling sumuko”

Once upon a time….. (Oooops! is this a story telling?) well, being born in this world is like a blessing, but how can i say if you are blessed when you also have imperfections?.

Isa akong estudyante na nangangarap makatapos, unang tanong paano? when i was a kid, everytime they asked me of what i wanted to be lagi kong isinasagot “gusto ko yung gumuguhit ng bahay” and as expected they are always amazed like “wow!”.

Before i take the entrance examination in college buo yung loob ko na maging arkitekto! may mga nananakot na ang sabi “kakayanin mo ba?” “sigurado ka na ba?”, hindi ko sila pinapansin at sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na “i can! this is what i wanted!”.

First year college palang ang hirap na agad pero sabi ko “kaya ko to!” when suddenly my world flipped down, i became pregnant, and yes i stopped, daming tanong ang pumasok sa isip ko, paano na yung pangarap ko? ano na ang mangyayari sa buhay ko?, nakakaiyak, nakakalungkot pero kailangan tanggapin, having a son is a blessing.

To make this short, pinagpatuloy ko ang pag aaral ko pero hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan ko kakayanin, those pens are my things, they are my also my treasures itinuturing ko rin silang babies, you want to know why? siguro kung itinabi ko lahat ng pera na ipinambili ko sakanila, i saved a lot.

“Ang pag aaral ay hindi parang kanin na mainit na kapag napaso ka iluluwa mo nalang”.

Architecture ay isang kurso na parang pag-ibig na hindi mo puwedeng basta sukuan dapat handa ka rin itong ipaglaban!.

Kayasa mga kagaya ko na hinuhusgahan na maaga daw lumandi, tandaan nalang natin na hindi pa huli ang lahat para ikaw din ay magwagi.

“Be a person who has a good personality and never look down to others ability.”